ON EVERYTHING
You see in the spirit of my last post I made a list for what to write about next. I was going to write about escape and time and humility. But since I made that list, so much has happened again that these items already feel irrelevant to the moment. What I want to write about is love.
My definition of ‘God’ before I came here was nothing religious. It didn’t have a form, it didn’t have a story. But then who was I trying to thank for every single miracle in my life? Every single feeling of beauty and peace and inspiration. Every single gift and every single kiss. Who to thank for the guidance through this wild ride called life?
This is why I came here. I wanted to understand my relation to this ‘force’ deeper. Meet it. And it turns out, it is none other than love herself. love love love. This is what is being worshipped here in Vrindavan. Not Krishna, the creator, but Radharani, the Goddess of love. God’s girlfriend. Her love is unconditional, so pure and so kind that even God cannot withstand, let alone comprehend it. And if God cannot understand the workings of her mercy then I sure cannot either. All I know is that it’s real. She is real and her mercy is real. It is real it is real it is real. I don’t even want to begin to start sounding like a preacher about this, but by the kindness I have been shown, all I want to do is shout it against the wind of materialism: DIVINE LOVE IS REAL.
She led me here. She called me home. And now I am beginning to see, she is protecting those near to me as well. This isn’t just a feeling I am having. Multiple occasions now have proven that the ones I love are under her protection too. Her mercy towards me extends onto them. My head is hurting with how beautiful this is. and with how little there is to worry about. I don’t need to worry at all. It is taken care of. My heart and his heart and all of their hearts are being guided by her.
Love is like a fire. It burns through your heart and it changes you. It changes those who touch it. who are touched by it. by her. because once you have seen the lava within the volcano of divine love, you will understand that there is nothing that this spell cannot melt.
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